I really hate being rejected. I hate
it just about as much as anything. Dont they realize my genius?
Dont they know who I am (or at least, who I used to be)?
The latest rejections of course are
from SIGGRAPH.
Almost a year ago, I write an essay
about some things that I think SIGGRAPH needed to address, or at
least think about. I send it to as many people I know who I think
might be interested, including, indirectly through friends, to the
Executive Committee.
You can read it here:
Terrence Massan was very positive about
it, and forwarded it to the right people. But very little response
back. I heard two comments. The first was "Who is this guy?"
How soon they forget. The second was a response from someone who
suggested that I volunteer. Well, I try and try to volunteer but
nothing ever seems to work.
You see, I can't even give it away.
I must be so worthless, so
uninteresting, that they can not think of a single useful thing to do
with me, although I volunteered at least a half dozen possible ideas to see if
they were interested in any of them, and they were not.
And yet I know that my SIGGRAPH "Topics
for Discussion" essay is the most popular thing on my blog. It
gets hits everyday, lots of them. So someone must be reading it,
perhaps.
So many of the problems I identified
before are still there, from my point of view, or worse, and I think
that there is much more that they can do.
Now maybe I will discover that in fact,
they have had endless discussions on these topics, but I am just not in the loop, nor do they want me in the loop, and I will just
discover how much progress they have made at SIGGRAPH. Sometimes,
still waters run deep.
But because to me they just look like
"still water", I will write another memo, suggesting more
clearly what I think they should do about some of the issues I
brought up. My thinking has evolved as has the situation. I will
also write up why I think it is SIGGRAPHs responsibility to do some
of these things, at least arguably.
Also, I think I need to run for the
SIGGRAPH Executive Committee and get that out of my system. I wont
have any trouble writing up a position statement, that at least is
comforting.
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